After I was diagnosed, there were some days where I couldn't sleep. I was living in such fear. I kept thinking about all of the "what if's". I was in a constant state of panic. I had just started a Bible study with a book called. "Becoming A Vessel God Can Use" by Donna Partow. When I started the book, I didn't understand how God could use me. In tears, I randomly opened this book and this is what was on the page. "In times of trouble say "First, He brought me here. It is by His will I am in this place; in that I will rest. Next, He will keep me in his love and give me the grace in this trial to behave as His child. Then, He will make the trial a blessing,teaching me the lessons He means me to learn, and working in me the grace He intends for me. Last, in His good time, He can bring me out again,how and when only He knows. Say, I am here: By God's appointment, In God's keeping, Under his training, For His time.(Humility by Andrew Murray) I never asked God "why me" But after reading this, I did start to ask him"what now?". We kept reading about cancer being a "journey". Scott started an email list of prayer warriors who he wrote to frequently to update on me. He started ending the email with "Continuing the journey in His grip". This became our slogan because we know we are in God's grip and we are going through this journey for a reason.
gone fishin'
caught some seaweed
